With a pain in the neck and a two and a three....

Sunday morning I woke up and what did I do? I don't really know...but it made my neck hurt way bad and it's still hurting (charlie). I never have had a pinched nerve before and I guess that is what happened. I pinched a nerve in my neck. I was totally freaking out. The thought of paralysis kept coming to mind but I could still move everything very well so I knew that diagnosis was out.  I hardly moved for a good hour or so...until my arm starting going numb because it was above my head and then I starting thinking that I had some sort of slow onset paralysis.  Maybe I was overreacting just a little. When it comes to head and neck pain, I AM A WIMP!! Break my thumb...oh no worries...I'll keep playing softball..,,can't close the glove but that doesn't matter, right?...I'll just catch it with my bare hands......(okay...I exaggerated the bare hands part a bit..but you get the idea)......A small sharp pain in my neck and I am down for the count. I now have more empathy for those that get pinched nerves often. They are not fun and I do not wish them on anybody. Thanks family for putting up with me!

P.S. To my older sisters (and maybe even the younger ones): I hope you are singing the same song I am :)

Becoming

I'm am just going to start typing because I don't really know how to say what I want to say. I've just been thinking a lot lately about becoming the person that Heavenly Father wants me to be. Living up to my potential....except I don't like that word because potential is unattainable. It is possible as opposed to actual....according to the dictionary. It is something that I just want to be. I want it to be actual...right now. A person worth becoming can't be attained in one moment. And I fail. A lot. Fortunately, Christ suffered for my failures and with Him, I can overcome all things. He can make me into person he needs me to be as long as I do my best. I guess I am realizing how feeble willpower can be and at the same time, how strong it can be. It depends on the source. When it is coming only from me, it is quite weak. When I am coupled with Christ, my willpower is unmatchable. Why do I, then, walk away from him? Why do I unhook myself from his yolk and try to do things on my own? It is way harder! That is the natural man in me. It is funny how we think that we are taking an easier path. It may start out easier but in the end it is always harder. Sometimes I just want to see all the way to the end even though I am not very far from the beginning. At the same time, I don't want to see the end because what if I don't like it? Then what would I do? Gordon B Hinckley said "It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us.…If we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers." I'll just keep working on trusting that even though things seem one way, Heavenly Father has a plan and everything will work out and I will find happiness. Now I am not saying that I am not happy because I am happy. My life is great. It is going very well for me right now. I have the best family EVER. My parents are so great and have taught me a lot more than they know and my sisters are my best friends. I have so many blessings it is ridiculous and somehow Heavenly Father sees fit to keep sending me more. I have a great job and soon I get to start school..again! Finally!! My life is so fantastic! But, I am human. I hope that in my humanly weakness, blindness, and stiffneckedness, I don't miss the special experiences that Heavenly Father has in store for me. I want to become the person in my patriarchal blessing. I want to be a force of righteousness and light in this world that is increasingly wicked and dark. I want people to want to know Christ because they know me. I want people to see his face in my countenance. There is a book that I read called "Moonwalking with Einstein." It is a very interesting book. I loved it and would recommend it. There is a...I guess you could call it a declaration..or a motto...I can't thing of the word for it right now...by the group called the "Talented Tenth Manifesto." They say, "Either walk with our glory and rise to the top with us, or step aside, for when we get to the top, we will reach back and raise you up with us." This is the kind of life I want to live. One where I work as hard as I can to reach the top and as I get higher and higher, I turn around and lift others. So I say, "Either walk with my glory and rise to the top with me, or step aside, for when I get to the top, I will reach back and raise you up with me." I hope that doesn't sound too bold or conceited. I just want to make a difference.

Something to think about

Today at work, my coworker asked a really interesting question. Why does paper always beat rock? If you hold a paper in front of your face and I throw a rock at it who wins? Something to think about.....

The Neti Pot

I used a Neti Pot for the first time tonight. When I was on vacay, my sister was using her Neti Pot one morning and it totally grossed me out. Something about cleaning boogers out of your nose with liquid makes me gag a little bit. My Mom and I were talking about how we are getting a little sick. She said that she used the Neti Pot earlier today and I decided that I wanted to try it. I was a little nervous. I'm not a big fan of having liquids in my nose...it usually hurts. I don't know if I did it exactly right because it was just a little stream that came out the other side and when I saw my sister do it, the stream seemed a lot bigger. But even if I did it wrong I could breathe pretty well after I finished using it and it didn't even hurt! SUCCESS! I'm not sure it I'm converted to the Neti Pot just yet. I'll give it a few more tries.

I need some emotional support!!

I just received my new Kindle Touch...yes..I betrayed my Nook Simple Touch Reader. It wasn't a hard decision. As soon as I found out about it the Kindle Touch (okay..maybe like a week or two later), I ordered it. It is awesome! Right now I need some emotional support. Why? Because I am going through a inner conflict as to whether or not I should take off the plastic covering. I don't know what it is about electronics but I like to keep the plastic covering on as long as possible. I think my phone had part of the covering on for almost a month. The plastic on the screen of my Ipod was taken off about 2 weeks after I got it only because I was getting a more high tech cover put on (now it is almost indestructible..WOOT).  Now I am left alone with my Kindle and the plastic cover is staring me down, tempting me, trying to use its mind tricks to get me to pull it off. What to do? What to do?  Keep it on? Pull it off? Keep it on? Pull it off? I can't make this decision by myself!! I need something to help me decide like a flower, or a quarter, or maybe if the stars could align and the Fates could tell me what I should do. Hmmm...well, the only flower I have is attached to a pen so those petals won't come off easily, I spent all my quarters buying the Kindle,  I don't have a telescope to see when stars align, and I don't know when the Fates will be around to tell me. I guess I'll just have to succumb..........It is coming off...............halfway there.......there is no turning back now....(my heart actually sped up a little bit. That is a little ridiculous)......a little bit left......and it is off and in the trash. Wow...that was tough. Now I feel like I can't touch the screen.....great......

New!

I wanted to make a new blog. Here it is. The end.